Sporadic Moments of Clarity

I am leaving for Israel in 28 days. I am moving from one of the coldest countries in the world to a literal desert. Despite the insanity of the situation not only am I calm, but I am pretty much indifferent to the whole thing. Truth be told, most of the time I just feel like I am going on summer vacation. It is only at rare moments I have instances of clarity and say to myself "whoa, I am making aliyah." Moments like tonight. I was at a movie with friends and during the previews they showed all these trailers of movies I wouldn't be around to see with those people. Movies I could so easily picture myself going to with my Toronto friends, but know it will never happen. Weird.